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Our life was a masterclass in acting, learnt to see harmony in cacophony: Irrfan’s family

Wife Sutapa Sikdar and sons Ayan and Babil released a statement about Irrfan Khan's untimely death Wednesday due to cancer. Read the full text here.

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New Delhi: Actor Irrfan Khan left a gaping hole in the hearts of many Bollywood fans when he passed away in Mumbai 29 April. There was an outpouring of condolences, shock, and grief from the film industry and fans alike. Khan, who was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer in 2018, had recently shown signs of recovery and was making his way back to filmmaking. 

His family, wife Sutapa Sikdar and sons Ayan and Babil, released an official statement Friday, expressing their grief.

Read the full statement here:

“How can I write this as a family statement when the whole world is taking it as a personal loss? How can I begin to feel alone when millions are grieving with us at the moment? I want to assure everyone that this is not a loss, it is a gain. It’s a gain of the things he taught us, and now we shall finally begin to truly implement it and evolve. Yet I want to try to fill in the things that people don’t already know.

“It’s unbelievable for us but I would put it in Irrfan’s words, “it’s magical” whether he is there or not there, and that’s what he loved, he never loved one dimensional reality. The only thing I have a grudge against him is; he has spoiled me for life. His strive for perfection doesn’t let me settle for ordinary in any thing. There was a rhythm which he always saw in everything, even in cacophony and chaos, so I have learnt to sing and dance to the music of that rhythm, even with my tone-deaf voice and two left feet. Funnily, our life was a masterclass in acting, so when the dramatic entry of the “uninvited guests” happened, I had by then learnt, to see a harmony in the cacophony.

“The doctor’s reports were like scripts which I wanted to perfect, so l never miss any detail that he sought for in his performance. We met some amazing people in this journey and the list is endless, but there are some whom I have to mention, our oncologist Dr. Nitesh Rohatgi (Max hospital Saket) who held our hand in the beginning, Dr. Dan Krell (UK), Dr. Shidravi (UK), my heartbeat and my lantern in the dark Dr. Sevanti Limaye (Kokilaben hospital).

“It’s difficult to explain what a wondrous, beautiful, overwhelming, painful and exciting this journey has been. I find this 2 and 1/2 years to have been an interlude, which had its own beginning, middle and culmination with Irrfan helming the role of the orchestra conductor, separate from the 35 years of our companionship, ours was not a marriage, it was a union. I see my little family, in a boat, with both my sons Babil and Ayaan, paddling it forward, with Irrfan guiding them

wahan nahi, yahan se modo” but since life is not cinema and there are no retakes, I sincerely wish my children sail this boat safely with their father’s guidance in mind and rockabye through the storm.

“I asked my children, if possible, they could sum up a lesson taught by their father that has been important to them; Babil: “Learn to surrender to the dance of uncertainty and trust your faith in the universe”

Ayaan: “Learn to control your mind and to not let it control you.”

“Tears will flow as we will plant a raat ki rani tree, his favourite, to the place where you have put him to rest after a victorious journey. It takes time but it will bloom and the fragrance will spread and touch all the souls whom I won’t call them fans but family for years to come.”

Also read: Irrfan’s 8 finest performances and what made them so special


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  1. “.. My heartbeat, and my lantern in the dark..” I will call this one of the most beautiful lines I have ever read. May Irrfan rest in peace, and may God give lot of strength to Sutapa Sikdar and their two sons

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